Degree to destiny

Just completed 9 years in the same group, and realised, how much surprised I used to be when I met such ppl around 10-12 years back. And those are still there. What a beautiful occasion this is, to talk about our dreams, perceptions and the reality.

Before that I would really like to thank & congratulate my Boss as it’s not me alone, together we made it possible. Without the comfort, the power, the liberty to take decisions, I am being always offered, it would not have been possible.

Are we able to recall the days when we were in class 10^th and planning for the future and why 10^th only, at every milestone there was a change in the vision about life and so in the planning. If I will talk about myself, I think I am able to summarise the facts as below:

1                     Firstly, I wanted to be a teacher, precisely a Math’s Teacher, then

2                     An accounts teacher

3                     A lecturer

4                     But joined CA

Then the second phase got started

1                     A direct tax specialist

2                     An indirect tax specialist

3                     An internal auditor

4                     But got married and relocated

And life moved on

1                     started with a CA firm

2                     But became a part time lecturer and started home tuitions for CAs’ and MBAs’

3                     By the time I would have got settled in teaching line again, got opportunity to join as an school accountant

4                     And then here I am after serving no. of departments in a same company.

Now if I look back, I am not able to reconcile between what I want and what I am. And gradually don’t feel any requirement as well. It is like a peaceful film, having all the colours of life. I am able to laugh upon all my tears and I find tears in my eyes on recalling my happiest memories. I got a degree which led me where I am today, but what is the destiny, where I need to go, DONOT KNOW. And slowly I feel I am losing my vision, I am running towards end and need to know the purpose of my life. What I am supposed to do further. The feeling is like, my countdown has been started now.

But something is still pending, as I have reached to the level from where I started. But now It’s not for me, It’s for Ananya & Arrnav. On the second thought, am I able to help, this is a million dollar question in front of every parent, I suppose.

I would like to mention here, My Mom played this second inning very well, but what about us. We are still struggling with sooooo many things apart from the Job, such which insurance, computers, cars, technology, globalisation,  standard of living, high society living etc. In all these things how will we manage to pass on our ethics to next generation.  Now 24 hrs have become short and life is running fast. Is this all for what I was sent to the earth, WHO knows. Even don't know what I have added and observed from here. Nothing will be changed if Ms. Sheetal Khurana/ or anybody will not be there tomorrow and still ................... still we live in double standard life, dreams, perceptions. On the contrary we are running away from the reality, the truth, aim of our original existence. How we will reach to the destiny. On many occasions, I feel, I have reached there and immediately after that I realise it's still a passage and I have to walk a looooong way. 

This blog has become almost like a questionnaire, come across to all the middle age people  like me. Pl guide if somebody is having any solution or if somebody would like to enlighten. Your active participation  may bring us out of the illusions. So pleeease do.

This is not enough, we also need to talk about the double standards we live in but later on.................